Funny how I spent the past few weeks completely intent on forgetting him and forgetting us and leaving it be and moving on when all it took was spending one hour with him, re-familiarizing myself with his smile, his conversation, his voice, and his company to make me feel like myself again. Not the childish, lost, anxious, stressed, and afraid girl that I’ve been since we stopped talking.
I felt so lost without him, as much as I hate to admit it.
He doesn’t “complete” me. We don’t “need” each other. But he is a large part of the anchor that binds me to the part of me that is determined, ambitious, and inspired.
When we were apart, I felt like I lost grip on everything and was just floating away in open water with no sense of direction. He made everything better. Within the past few weeks, there was this gaping hole in my heart that I simply couldn’t fill. Now I know why.
Together or not, he belongs in my life and he’ll always have a special part in it regardless of whether or not we’re friends or in a relationship or just on good terms.
It feels so, so good to be able to see him again.