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ijustwant[ s l e e p ]

Tue, 21 May 2013 01:03:13 -0400

I want to close my eyes and dream sweet things, to be able to rest eternally without death, a sweet escape from reality, to not have to harbor any fear of the future.

Sleep is beautiful because while I dream, I have no worries. I don’t want to die; I just want to float, and ignore all of the worries of every day life. No thoughts of what could steal my last breath, just the calm and steady rise and fall of my chest.

Comfort, no stress. Resting. Dreaming.

I just want sleep.

She’s the complete opposite of interesting. Seventeen with dark brown eyes, nearly black as coal. A...

Tue, 21 May 2013 00:51:02 -0400

She’s the complete opposite of interesting.

Seventeen with dark brown eyes, nearly black as coal. A disaster of beauty, each day is of both fascination and exhaustion.

Chunky combat boots, skinny jeans, mismatched patterned socks, denim vests.
Her thinkspace is drizzled with scraps of papers, numerous pens, and empty cups of Koolaid and coffee. Existing here in her perfect world are columns of literature of all types, books big and small placed wherever they will fit. There is comfort in pen and paper. Sketchbooks are an appropriate place to rest her head. Sleep is the sweetest escape. The written word is a familiar art. Blood of glitter and gold.

Despite her lackluster personality, she is a mystery all in herself.
The quiet type, with a way with words… a walking contradiction, if you will.

She is self destructive.
Timer set, wait for detonation.

“Watch out for this girl, she’s got a gun for a tongue.

Hi, long time no see, Tumblr.

Mon, 20 May 2013 04:08:37 -0400

Hi, long time no see, Tumblr.

I don't understand why some girls are so afraid to be embarassed.

Wed, 15 May 2013 02:46:59 -0400

I think girls that are afraid to be silly or ungraceful at least every once in a while are kind of repulsive.

How hideous of a life that must be, to try to be completely perfect at all times and to hold a constant fear that people will laugh at you for being anything less.

My mentality is that when people laugh, you laugh too.
How miserable it must be to cower in fear of being made fun of or to be embarrassed.

I swear, some women will turn into devils over an ill-timed or badly angled picture of them.

It’s okay to have people laugh at you, and to laugh at yourself every once in a while.

Live a little.
Everything is much more fun when you’re not being boring attempting to prove to everyone that you’re flawless in every aspect of reality when in reality, you’re only human.

resilientkate: softgore: “This piece was primarily a trust...

Sat, 11 May 2013 03:42:30 -0400

resilientkate:

softgore:

“This piece was primarily a trust exercise, in which she told viewers she would not move for six hours no matter what they did to her. She placed 72 objects one could use in pleasing or destructive ways, ranging from flowers and a feather boa to a knife and a loaded pistol, on a table near her and invited the viewers to use them on her however they wanted.

Initially, Abramović said, viewers were peaceful and timid, but it escalated to violence quickly. “The experience I learned was that … if you leave decision to the public, you can be killed… I felt really violated: they cut my clothes, stuck rose thorns in my stomach, one person aimed the gun at my head, and another took it away. It created an aggressive atmosphere. After exactly 6 hours, as planned, I stood up and started walking toward the public. Everyone ran away, escaping an actual confrontation.”

This piece revealed something terrible about humanity, similar to what Philip Zimbardo’s Stanford Prison Experiment or Stanley Milgram’s Obedience Experiment, both of which also proved how readily people will harm one another under unusual circumstances.”

This performance showed just how easy it is to dehumanize a person who doesn’t fight back, and is particularly powerful because it defies what we think we know about ourselves. I’m certain the no one reading this believes the people around him/her capable of doing such things to another human being, but this performance proves otherwise.”

this is why performance art is important

Powerful.

This one time in 3rd grade, there was a boy.

Thu, 02 May 2013 00:08:04 -0400

He was new to our class. He had deep skin but the prettiest green eyes and curly light brown hair.

What I remember most about him was every day during nutrition, he would slip me one of his Skippy peanut butter Squeeze Stix. For free, while he charged all the other kids fifty cents.

There was a gated off part of the large playground behind my school, where there was really tall grass. It was gated because the grass was so overgrown that the playground monitors couldn’t see the kids playing in it. Still, there was a secret crawlspace underneath one of the gates, hidden behind an empty bungalow classroom. My friends and I would sneak into it to play in the tall grass; hide and seek, soccer, or to just run in it and let our imaginations go wild.

This day, we were tigers. There were three of us little girls, in our private school collared shirts and navy skirts. I remember us giggling and running from each other, ready to pounce.

After a few minutes, I ran into him.
The green eyed boy from my class, who I’d never really talked to.

“Hi,” he said.
“Hi,” I smiled.
“Wanna be friends?” he asked.
“Sure!” I thought it was sweet that he took the initiative to be friends. I was glad, because I was shy.
“Let’s play tag,” he said.

So we did.
After a few moments, his friends joined us, and I wondered how they found the secret crawlspace. My friends joined in, too. We all laughed and played and rolled around in the grass. We were having so much fun.

Until the boys started playing too rough.
“We don’t want to play with you guys anymore,” they said, and ran back to the crawl space.
I shrugged it off. I was quite the tomboy back then; I knew how to play rough.
“We can still play, if you want,” I offered.
“Can I ask you something?” The green eyed boy rubbed the back of his neck nervously.
“Yeah?”
“Do you like me?”
“Yeah, you’re a funny boy.”
“No, like.. LIKE me, like me.”
I gave a perfectly normal response. “Well I don’t know you too well yet. And I’m not allowed to have a boyfriend.”
“We should kiss,” he said.
I felt my stomach go a little uneasy. “But I’m only seven. I don’t want to. That’s for grown ups.”
He approached me anyways, him and the other three boys. Suddenly, I felt alone. My friends were long gone. Something clicked in my head and told me to run. I did. “Get her,” I heard him demand as i sprinted for the gate. I was too slow. He shoved me to the ground and got on top of me. All I knew was that I was scared.
I started to scream for help.
“Hold her down,” he told his two friends. They did. Two held down my shoulders and my mouth while the third held down my ankles.

He started to kiss and lick my neck. I could feel the tears streaming down my face and I struggled, hard. He began to grab at my skirt, trying to pull it up but I was wearing shorts underneath.
“Open her legs,” he commanded, and the boy holding my ankles did. I was screaming and crying into the dirty, grubby hands of two little boys as they assisted their friend in doing what he wanted to do.

Just as he was about to pull off my shorts, I heard someone approaching in the grass a few feet away. It was one of the playground monitors.

“The bell rang a few minutes ago,” she said as she approached. “The classes are lining up now.”

“Oh shit,” all three of them said, and stood up. It was the first time I’d ever heard anyone my age curse like that.

Suddenly she was standing over me. I was crying and quivering in the grass. I could feel her eyes processing my tears before she knelt down and helped me up.

“What is going on here?!” Her name was Miss Garcia. She was completely horrified. I had to squint my eyes because her vest was such a brilliant shade of neon orange, especially in the sun. I didn’t know what to do. So I hugged her legs as tight as I could, sobbing. My body was shaking and my legs were horrendously itchy from laying in the grass.

“We were just playing actors,” the boy pointed at me. “It was a scene we made up. She was the mom and I was the dad.”
His three friends nodded vigorously in agreement.

“They’re lying,” I cried. “They all held me down while he-” I remembered feeling extremely embarrassed to say the next word because it was so grown up, “-kissed me.”
Miss Garcia’s face contorted into an expression I couldn’t understand.
“Come with me.” She dragged him to the office by his ear but held my hand.

Our parents were called. the police came, too, but I didn’t know why. Suddenly I felt so guilty, wondering if I had gotten the boy into real big trouble.

He was expelled, and that was the end of that. I didn’t know what expulsion meant. All I knew was I was scared and Miss Garcia helped me. She stayed with me in the nurses office until I stopped crying.

I never saw him again.
And I forgot about the whole thing, until now.

It’s funny how you don’t understand certain things until you really grow up.
… I worry for our future generations.

One time my friends and I got drunk took the samurai swords on top of my fireplace off of their...

Thu, 18 Apr 2013 00:09:18 -0400

One time

my friends and I got drunk

took the samurai swords on top of my fireplace off of their display

and ran around my house

swords unsheathed

like Naruto

It was epic.

"1. Run away to Brooklyn. Rent an apartment with a claw footed bathtub. Commute to Manhattan during..."

Sat, 13 Apr 2013 21:19:38 -0400

“

1. Run away to Brooklyn. Rent an apartment with a claw footed bathtub. Commute to Manhattan during the week and put in hours at a menial publishing job. Drive home to New Jersey on weekends to swim in the pool and cry to your mother. Smoke Gauloises on the fire escape. Let yellowing issues of Rolling Stone and Vogue pile into a protective fortress around your bed. Listen to Cat Power. Fall asleep mostly naked beneath the duvet watching Sportscenter and drinking earl grey. Date a Yankees fan and kiss his hands on the 4 Train into the Bronx.

2. Run away to Barcelona. Eat milk chocolate magnum bars and drink cheap champagne. Burst into charming fits of laughter whenever you get embarrassed about butchering the Catalan language. Wear denim cutoffs, Dr. Pepper chapstick, and very little else. Go dancing at 3 a.m. Whiten your teeth. Tan your shoulders. Braid feathers into your hair. Perpetually wake up with sand caught in the thin cotton sheets of your tiny bed. Listen to the Rolling Stones and kiss all the longhaired boys you can get your hands on without ever having to apologize.

3. Run away to Los Angeles. Sublet a studio in Venice three blocks from the beach. Listen to top 40 radio. Go to Chateau Marmont and charge drinks you can’t afford to a long-dormant credit card. Sleep with a television actor who lives in the valley. Sleep with a musician who lives in Bel Air. Break things off with both of them when gas prices begin to rise. Find Gilda Radner’s star on the Walk Of Fame and swallow a sob when you see the filthy cement around her name is cracked. Walk through the Venice Canals until the sun sets and you forget your own name. Call your mother crying from the parking lot of a 24-hour Ralph’s supermarket. Tell her you want to come home.

4. Run away to Paris. Gaze at the pink and pistachio glow of macarons in the window on Boulevard Saint-Germain. Listen to Joni Mitchell. Meet an Argentinean man in the Latin Quarter for drinks. Melt into his accent and kiss him goodnight, but return to your apartment alone because his face doesn’t look enough like the man’s you are trying to forget. Get lost in the Richelieu Wing of the Louvre, admiring Napoleon’s fine red damask. Walk alone along the Seine in an old dress, ten-dollar shoes, and an Hermes scarf. Fumble with the locks on the fence overlooking the river. They all have lovers’ names etched into them and the girl who left the red heart-shaped lock has the same name as you.

5. Run away to Martha’s Vineyard. Write heartbroken stories during the day in front of a large fan that blows curls of humid hair across your tired face. Take a waitress job at The Black Dog at night and try hard not to drop too many trays. Learn to ride a moped. Pretend you’re a Kennedy. Listen to Carly Simon. Eat hand-churned ice cream out of waffle cones. Visit the flying horses and consider how many girls just like you have sat on the same horse clutching for the same brass ring. Get stoned and dance barefoot down the length of the eroded Jaws beach. Date a Red Sox fan. Yell at each other during baseball games, and then kiss and make up between tangled sheets.

”

- 5 Fantasy Exit Strategies (via mmmelissa)

HighLife

Fri, 12 Apr 2013 05:13:30 -0400

It’s been a while. I’ve been kickin it and smokin and chillin and token on the same couch that we met with, you know, my homie, his lighter, your stories, sure fire. And I stayed here and enjoyed while you smoked and employed more people to your wisdom and I invited more people to my kingdom that no one understood due to sobriety as I sat back and judged society because in turn their judgments were cruel but in my eyes, all judgments are reality.

So fancy me, judge me, judge everyone that doesn’t give a fuck because wherever fucks are given there are never enough for substantiality, no one here believes in reality, because in the morning there’s only silence: no questions of morality. It’s all simple theory, really. How many bitches could a kid screw if a kid could screw bitches, but all these so called bitches are women here.

They’re just lost, looking for their own realities hoping that what they’ve got is enough to avoid future lectures on rationalities.

And that, ladies and gentlemen is the epitome of our youth because no matter what we do, our actions speak the truth.

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Tue, 09 Apr 2013 13:13:50 -0400

mintou: ayeeguurl: casssieee: OMGOMSOMSDOFMSDOFIJDSLKJL! My...

Thu, 28 Mar 2013 23:13:01 -0400

mintou:

ayeeguurl:

casssieee:

OMGOMSOMSDOFMSDOFIJDSLKJL!

My favorite one LOLOLOL

GDI

OMG

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Thu, 28 Mar 2013 23:10:33 -0400

erudess: Dying

Thu, 28 Mar 2013 00:47:23 -0400

erudess:

Dying

I embrace people that admit that they don't see past the surface.

Sat, 23 Mar 2013 06:07:00 -0400

I’d rather someone tell me that they don’t understand what something is all about rather than someone that thinks they are an artist in all respects that doesn’t have the slightest idea how to dig deep or to construct their own opinions and thoughts.

The only time a human is weak is when they cannot produce for themselves.

If you cannot produce your own ideas, you are nothing but blood, bone, & cells. You cannot be provided the materials to do as you will and simply not do anything.

As the saying goes, an artist can never fail. An artist simply makes mistakes and chooses which ones to keep.

If you never try, how will you know?

Perfection is a misconception.

Sat, 23 Mar 2013 06:00:34 -0400

We seek symmetry, yet we proclaim that substance is what we covet. Truthfully, we don’t seek understanding or depth; just desperately seeking knight in shining armor mentality, or at least what’s left of it. We try and try to convince ourselves that we aren’t limited to aesthetics, yet with our physical desires, we’re so specific. Our excuse is that we’re a modern society; oh, how scientific, until we discover more “health mysteries” better deemed as human defects, and still we shower them with pity. Pity, in attempts to shadow our shallow ends; but like a toddler at the beach, it’s clear where the sand ends and the void begins. We’re drowning in our own misconceptions of beauty, thinking we know everything when we only look skin deep. But past the blood and bone, there is a home housing our true feelings; our reality. Yet we still remain scarred and scared, because our reality is much shallower than it seems. We want to believe we are passionate, non-judgmental human beings, yet judging is what we’re best at… until it comes to ourselves. Because we’re so busy judging, criticizing, assuming, and patronizing everyone else, that when we finally look in the mirror, nothing has become of us but empty shells. This is our reality.

I don't understand.

Sat, 23 Mar 2013 05:49:00 -0400

Hate is a natural human emotion.

It stems from a variety of things. Hatred. Jealousy. Envy. Confusion. Misunderstanding.

What is so disgusting about hate is the kind that springs from insecurity. Insecurity tends to show the ugliest colors within a person’s soul—the part of them that is willing to do or say anything to make them feel reassured; the gratification achieved only through degrading another human being.

This is the worst type of hate. The type of hate that triggers self hatred within someone else; the type with the potential to ruin lives.

But why do we do it?
To put a quick fix of a smile on our own faces?
To help us sleep for one night and one night only before awaking and hating ourselves all over again?

This type of hate is disgusting. Like a virus, it starts as a harmless comment, before it spins out of control and affects hundreds, affecting them with the disease of self-hatred and unworthiness.

Insecurity is the worst out of all emotions. It is self against self.

When one pits self against self in large quantities, it strikes a gigantic internal war within thousands. Millions. Until we are battling each other for grasp of what is worthy and who we are.

Until we decide that we aren’t worth it.
And then, we are nothing.

And when we are nothing, we waste away. Waste away until nothing is left.

That, is what will be the end of us.

This is completely irrelevant but

Thu, 21 Mar 2013 23:16:44 -0400

I will be attending World of Dance and Anime Expo this year as a vendor on the Emazing Lights team so y’all should come check out the booth & say hi & give me hugs because I love hugs

Pretty pl0x?

No?

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Sun, 10 Mar 2013 23:49:22 -0400

It'sLikeAHug

Thu, 07 Mar 2013 23:44:19 -0500

She was beautiful. Not in the sense of perfection, or of the feminine sort. You know, flowy dresses, thin legs, small hips, deep collarbones.

She was beautiful in a broken sort of way.
Her aura was a cloud of smoke. Through the haze, she smiles, her teeth gleaming pearls against blood red lips. Her eyes, carefully framed with black shadows. Her long hair framed her face in jagged waves with a mysterious shimmer like a raven’s wings.

When she laughed, no one could tell if she was serious or taunting the cruel world around her.
Once, I found her in the bathroom of a stranger’s house, leaning against the porcelain of the tub. When I called her name, she simply turned to look at me, eyelids shutting and opening unbearably slowly. There was a near empty bottle resting beside her left knee.

She made intoxication seem graceful.

Her response to her name being called was a simple smile and clutching the neck of the bottle and bringing it to her mouth. She sipped the hard liquor as if it was champagne. I could feel my face pinch, reacting for her, feeling the imaginary burn in my throat. But as the liquor slid down hers, she made no real movement. Her posture, her face. Her eyes did not change.

She felt nothing.

“You probably shouldn’t have anymore.” I took a step toward her. “You’ve had a lot to drink.”

She smirked and finished the rest of the bottle.
She stood quickly, yet gracefully, like a swan would stretch its wings.

She asked me, “Do you know what a hug feels like?”

Baffled, I responded. “Well.. yeah.”

She brushed past me.

Before reaching the threshold, she paused. “I like hugs. Do you like hugs?”

“Yes—?”

“—of course you do. Everyone does.” She lifted the bottle and shrugged. “This is my friend Jack. He’s always there when I need him. And every time I take a swig, he gives me a hug. A nice one. One that makes me feel warm and fuzzy all over.” She placed the bottle on the counter. “I like these kinds hugs the best. Because when will you ever experience a hug that will make you feel better and make you forget at the same time?”

She left.
I looked back at the bottle on the counter. Completely empty, her red lipstick, a halo around the rim.

HeSaidSheSaid

Thu, 07 Mar 2013 23:27:00 -0500

He said, “Did you know that the eyes are the windows to your soul?”
She said, “I can see truth in that.”
He said, “Your eyes are as black as night, even in broad daylight.”
She said, “That’s because I will never allow anyone to look inside.”